Laughter in the Dark

Laughter in the Dark

1. Marionette

2. GUILTY

3. Crime & Punishment

4. pain... crimson... rain...

5. Mona Lisa

6. Judgement Day

7. ReBIRTH

8. Life of Lies

9. RUIN

10. bad blood

11. BEAST

12. sins

13. Pistol

14. BLACK OUT

Marionette

(chorus)

it's not depression

I don't cry

it's not depression

I cry no matter how hard I try

it's not depression

I don't cut myself, no

it's not suppression

they let me be myself

it's not suppression

I'm naturally timid

it's not suppression

I have nothing to hide

even if I died

(end chorus)

(verse 1)

shh, they prefer me to be a marionette

see? aren't I so perfect?

shh, they'll trap me with a net

if they see me like this

there's no need for alarm

as long as I don't self harm

when people look at me

do they not see the sadness behind these eyes?

(chorus)

it's not depression

I don't cry

it's not depression

I cry no matter how hard I try

it's not depression

I don't cut myself, no

it's not suppression

they let me be myself

it's not suppression

I'm naturally timid

it's not suppression

I have nothing to hide

even if I died

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

shh, these days I'm just so nervous

but you'll swear everything is alright

shh, the older I get, the more I become envious

actually, my soul is dark as night

I'm not a doll

I'm a marionette

watch me fall

sit in the audience and watch me fret

(chorus)

it's not depression

I don't cry

it's not depression

I cry no matter how hard I try

it's not depression

I don't cut myself, no

it's not suppression

they let me be myself

it's not suppression

I'm naturally timid

it's not suppression

I have nothing to hide

even if I died

(end chorus)

(bridge)

I strive for perfection

but it doesn't reach me

with all this imperfection

I can never find satisfaction

(chorus)

it's not depression

I don't cry

it's not depression

I cry no matter how hard I try

it's not depression

I don't cut myself, no

it's not suppression

they let me be myself

it's not suppression

I'm naturally timid

it's not suppression

I have nothing to hide

even if I died

(end chorus)

GUILTY

(verse 1)

I just don't care anymore

I tried and tried

you lied and lied

I just don't care anymore

speeding on those back roads

travelling like I'm light

the cop that pulled me over

probably saved my life

I just don't care anymore

but I'm getting a grip

I just don't care anymore

hopefully, I don't let things slip

(chorus)

what is real? is this real?

how do you feel? because I can't feel

why should I be afraid of death?

what's really scary is life

so let me feel this gentle embrace

at the end of my human race

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

I just don't care anymore

my boss said to work

I just don't care anymore

so I let it go with a shirk

it's been five months

the seconds ticked by

the hours crept from the crypt

I just don't care anymore

it makes me anxious

I just don't care anymore

this is true guilt

(chorus)

what is real? is this real?

how do you feel? because I can't feel

why should I be afraid of death?

what's really scary is life

so let me feel this gentle embrace

at the end of my human race

if this is what it's like to feel guilty

it goes down real silky

if this is what it's like to feel guilty

why does it feel sickly?

(end chorus)

(chorus)

what is real? is this real?

how do you feel? because I can't feel

why should I be afraid of death?

what's really scary is life

so let me feel this gentle embrace

at the end of my human race

if this is what it's like to feel guilty

it goes down real silky

if this is what it's like to feel guilty

why does it feel sickly?

(end chorus)

Crime & Punishment

(chorus)

if it's so bad

why did I get that rush of sublime?

I committed a crime

and the universe became my police

seeking justice, I went on the run

crime and punishment

(end chorus)

(verse 1)

God, tell me what my crime was

because the punishment doesn't seem just

all I've got is time to kill

so let it be your will

but just let it be known

that I'll do bad things again

how does it feel

to embrace being a sinner?

makes me into a winner

(chorus)

if it's so bad

why did I get that rush of sublime?

I committed a crime

the universe took everything from me

so instead of letting it be

I'm seeking revenge

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

it's funny when all I could see was red

maybe it was all in my head

but now that I'm basically dead

all I see is all black everything, everywhere

you're wrong because I'm right

(chorus)

if it's so bad

why did I enjoy it just a tad?

there was a gun

but I didn't fire it

I just went on the run

(end chorus)

(chorus)

if it's so bad

why did I get that rush of sublime?

I committed a crime

and the universe became my police

seeking justice, I went on the run

the one and only flower

you've come to know

is facing power

crime and punishment

(end chorus)

pain... crimson... rain...

(verse 1)

I'm crying tears of blood

for this pain and loss

shut up, just take another pill

you'll feel calmness soon

shut up, it's tough to swallow

just quit talking about it

pretend it never existed

and it'll go away

(chorus)

I take drugs for pain

I take drugs so sleep will cleanse me like rain

I take drugs so I can quit thinking

I take drugs so I can stay young and running

and escape from time itself

preserving myself on God's shelf

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

for a month everything was crimson

my mind went blank as I stared at the burning sun

shut up, just take another pill

so you won't stare at the moon

shut up, it's tough to swallow

just quit thinking about her

pretend she never existed

and she'll go away

(chorus)

I take drugs for pain

I take drugs so sleep will cleanse me like rain

I take drugs so I can quit thinking

I take drugs so I can stay young and running

and escape from time itself

preserving myself on God's shelf

(end chorus)

(bridge)

it's stupid how the world works

there's a pill for this and there's a pill for that

instead of finding the root of the problem

we tie up our work boot

and submerge ourselves in an escape

(chorus)

I take drugs for pain

I take drugs so sleep will cleanse me like rain

I take drugs so I can quit thinking

I take drugs so I can stay young and running

and escape from time itself

preserving myself on God's shelf

(end chorus)

Mona Lisa

(verse 1)

Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa

what are you thinking?

what are you thinking?

what are you thinking?

you'll never be able to tell

what I hide behind this smile

you'll never be able to tell

what I hide behind this smile

(verse 2)

Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa

what is she thinking?

what is she thinking?

what is she thinking?

you'll never be able to tell

what she hides behind that smile

you'll never be able to tell

what she hides behind that smile

(verse 3)

quickly before the sun rises

revealing the dawn

you can't see my beauty

because it's inside and not on my lawn

this glass house that is me

can be broken by throwing a single stone

no one will stay so leave me all alone

no one will ever love me

everyone in which I care

I see their flaws

but I think they cannot see mine at all

(chorus)

this ugly monster that I am

can never love again

truly, I'm not a work of art just a palette

the door that you slam

lock it so I can't attend

unruly and unwanted just like my life

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

instead of trying to find the truth

I tried to find love to replace like a brute

ignoring everything you gave me

those treasures, I still have them locked up

but like you said, they mean nothing

without someone with which to enjoy

(chorus)

this ugly monster that I am

can never love again

truly, I'm not a work of art just a palette

the door that you slam

lock it so I can't attend

unruly and unwanted just like my life

(end chorus)

(bridge)

so that I know

just tell it to my monstrous face

instead of leaving me without breathing

out in deep space

I'll never forget

what was done to me

all the people I tried to love

(chorus)

this ugly monster that I am

can never love again

truly, I'm not a work of art just a palette

the door that you slam

lock it so I can't attend

unruly and unwanted just like my life

(end chorus)

Judgement Day

(verse 1)

I've lost my mind

I've lost my mind

I've lost my mind

I've lost my mind

now only God can judge me

experiencing so many trials and tribulations

I've outgrown humanity

so when I'm forced to play my hand

I'll show all my revelations

(chorus)

before the almighty judge

on my judgement day

will I enter the golden gates of heaven

or burn for all eternity in hell?

wish me well, wish me well

there's still so much for me to do here

on this planet called Earth

with all these angels in disguise

watching my every move

judging me and critiquing me

it makes me nervous

it makes me nervous

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

can I go to that place?

can I exist in that space

on the astral plane

on the cloud plain

(chorus)

before the almighty judge

on my judgement day

will I enter the golden gates of heaven

or burn for all eternity in hell?

wish me well, wish me well

there's still so much for me to do here

on this planet called Earth

with all these angels in disguise

watching my every move

judging me and critiquing me

it makes me nervous

it makes me nervous

(end chorus)

ReBIRTH

(verse 1)

we will meet again

I'm so sure of it

hopefully, I'll live a fulfilled life

that I can share stories of with you

when we reunite

tell me, tell me

I cry myself to sleep every night

every glimmer of being alone makes me sad

and fills my thoughts

with visions of you

(chorus)

my love, tell me, please

one day can I have a rebirth

and start over without this darkness?

I'm drowning in a sea of love

I'm drifting away on currents of grief

my love, tell me, please

one day can we meet after my new birth

and live together forever in heaven?

no more drowning in sorrows

no more taking or bad borrows

just joy and love in never ending clouds

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

my anxiety-induced dreams haunt me

I can't tell if I'm existing in reality

all I can remember is your warm skin

your sweet smile, but I live with sin

that's right

the things that I couldn't tell you

catch up with me daily

you were right and I just worry, really

(chorus)

my love, tell me, please

one day can I have a rebirth

and start over without this darkness?

I'm drowning in a sea of love

I'm drifting away on currents of grief

my love, tell me, please

one day can we meet after my new birth

and live together forever in heaven?

no more drowning in sorrows

no more taking or bad borrows

just joy and love in never ending clouds

(end chorus)

(chorus)

my love, tell me, please

one day can I have a rebirth

and start over without this darkness?

I'm drowning in a sea of love

I'm drifting away on currents of grief

my love, tell me, please

one day can we meet after my new birth

and live together forever in heaven?

no more drowning in sorrows

no more taking or bad borrows

just joy and love in never ending clouds

(end chorus)

Life of Lies

(verse 1)

1989, I'm living a life of lies

still I can't help but imagine

if I lived in a simpler time

would things truly be simpler?

the complexity of today

perplexes me into thinking up schemes

(chorus)

I want to go back into time

to when I was a teenager

and live a life without worry

the things I stressed about

really weren't worth giving a damn

I want to go back into time

to when I was a child

and tell myself not to say sorry

or ever apologize for just being myself

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

1979, without all this technology

is it easier to live a life of lies

steering from the truth

just trying to find my worth

the complexity of today

perplexes me into thinking I'm in a dream

(chorus)

I want to go back into time

to when I was a teenager

and live a life without worry

the things I stressed about

really weren't worth giving a damn

I want to go back into time

to when I was a child

and tell myself not to say sorry

or ever apologize for just being myself

(end chorus)

(bridge)

1969, 1959, or even 1999

do you think we're heading towards

the end of the world

or will we all be reborn?

(chorus)

I want to go back into time

to when I was a teenager

and live a life without worry

the things I stressed about

really weren't worth giving a damn

I want to go back into time

to when I was a child

and tell myself not to say sorry

or ever apologize for just being myself

(end chorus)

RUIN

(chorus)

she's gone because I ruin everything I touch

I'm poor because I ruin everything I come into contact with

I'm screaming in my mind

I put myself into bad binds

I do bad things, but expect good outcomes

I am my own god of ruin

I am my own bringer of destruction

I'm screaming in my mind

I put myself into bad binds

(end chorus)

(verse 1)

I won't stop until I see blood

the injuries I sustain every day mean nothing

the darkness comes as a flood

I'm enamored with chaos

I watch and laugh as it consumes everything

(chorus)

they're gone because I ruin everything I touch

I'm poor because I ruin everything I come into contact with

I'm screaming in my mind

I put myself into bad binds

I do bad things, but expect good outcomes

I am my own god of ruin

I am my own bringer of destruction

I'm screaming in my mind

I put myself into bad binds

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

this is a warning to everyone in the world

this devil is disguised as an angel

I smile as I lie

I destroy as I heal

if you don't think any of this is real

let me just touch your hand

(chorus)

they're gone because I ruin everything I touch

I'm poor because I ruin everything I come into contact with

I'm screaming in my mind

I put myself into bad binds

I do bad things, but expect good outcomes

I am my own god of ruin

I am my own bringer of destruction

I'm screaming in my mind

I put myself into bad binds

(end chorus)

(bridge)

I won't stop until everything I once loved is ash

here is my final stance

I won't stop till the world is burning

and in the flames I will dance

(chorus)

they're gone because I ruin everything I touch

I'm poor because I ruin everything I come into contact with

I'm screaming in my mind

I put myself into bad binds

I do bad things, but expect good outcomes

I am my own god of ruin

I am my own bringer of destruction

I'm screaming in my mind

I put myself into bad binds

(end chorus)

bad blood

(verse 1)

fly high straight into the ground

fly high straight into the ground

justice in society

is sometimes only disguised

maybe people wouldn't die

if they didn't live in this madness

(chorus)

they won't be satisfied until they watch you bleed

they won't know what went wrong

even when we finally accede

and when you're worked into the ground

having not even a glimmer of the faintest bit of hope left

know that I'll no longer be around

because I'll have left long ago

bad blood, caked onto our bodies like mud

bad blood, as doom and death flood

bad blood, the knife hits the ground with a thud

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

as we danced in the velvet moon

that we dyed with the sacrifices of innocents

worrying not about our own innocence

because we killed it long ago

we decided to watch them fly high

straight into the ground

fly high straight into the ground

(chorus)

they won't be satisfied until they watch you bleed

they won't know what went wrong

even when we finally accede

and when you're worked into the ground

having not even a glimmer of the faintest bit of hope left

know that I'll no longer be around

because I'll have left long ago

bad blood, caked onto our bodies like mud

bad blood, as doom and death flood

bad blood, the knife hits the ground with a thud

(end chorus)

(bridge)

bad blood, caked onto our bodies like mud

bad blood, as doom and death flood

bad blood, the knife hits the ground with a thud

forgive me, forgive me

for spilling this sacred blood

kill me, kill me

for spilling this sacred blood

bad blood, caked onto our bodies like mud

bad blood, as doom and death flood

bad blood, the knife hits the ground with a thud

forgive me, forgive me

for spilling this sacred blood

kill me, kill me

for spilling this sacred blood

(chorus)

they won't be satisfied until they watch you bleed

they won't know what went wrong

even when we finally accede

and when you're worked into the ground

having not even a glimmer of the faintest bit of hope left

know that I'll no longer be around

because I'll have left long ago

bad blood, caked onto our bodies like mud

bad blood, as doom and death flood

bad blood, the knife hits the ground with a thud

(end chorus)

BEAST

(verse 1)

I roam through the forest

with no compassion

just like a serial killer

my bite is the sorest

pain is my passion

my laughter in the dark

is what makes me a bad news dealer

(chorus)

I'm a beast, I'm a beast

a bad guy to say the least

when I look in the mirror

it cracks from the horror

I'm a beast, I'm a beast

a bad guy to say the least

children run and people hide

when they see me on my nightly ride

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

when the worst thing I thought

could ever happen to me

actually came to be

I cried once, I wept twice

but at the funeral I didn't shed a tear

but for the rest of the year

(chorus)

I'm a beast, I'm a beast

a bad guy to say the least

when I look in the mirror

it cracks from the horror

I'm a beast, I'm a beast

a bad guy to say the least

children run and people hide

when they see me on my nightly ride

(end chorus)

(chorus)

I'm a beast, I'm a beast

a bad guy to say the least

when I look in the mirror

it cracks from the horror

I'm a beast, I'm a beast

a bad guy to say the least

children run and people hide

when they see me on my nightly ride

(end chorus)

sins

(verse 1)

I watched my sins gather and multiply

I asked for forgiveness

they were forgotten, but I couldn't move on

it's too easy

and so easily, I kept on sinning because it was easier

can anyone hear me over the alcohol and atmosphere?

I'm diving into my own problems head first

and breaking my own neck

(chorus)

even if I confess to these sins

there's still no way to win

even if I wash myself of these sins

with the holiest of water

my credits will roll after I say fin

people may say they forgive

but they don't forget

it's so easy to move on

when you're not the one that's hurt

so I'll move on from this sin

in another minute

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

can you hear my voice

underneath all this water?

listen to my final wish

the weight of this world

weighs too heavy on my mind

why can't we rewind?

trying to lose myself in art

trying to make a painting of myself

remembering that one can lose thyself

in madness and I want to be lost

(chorus)

even if I confess to these sins

there's still no way to win

even if I wash myself of these sins

with the holiest of water

my credits will roll after I say fin

people may say they forgive

but they don't forget

it's so easy to move on

when you're not the one that's hurt

so I'll move on from this sin

in another minute

(end chorus)

(bridge)

the television news

gives me a vision

of nothing but destruction

in the wake of fake construction

I don't want to be here when it happens

(chorus)

even if I confess to these sins

there's still no way to win

even if I wash myself of these sins

with the holiest of water

my credits will roll after I say fin

people may say they forgive

but they don't forget

it's so easy to move on

when you're not the one that's hurt

so I'll move on from this sin

in another minute

(end chorus)

(verse 3)

can you hear my voice

underneath all this water?

listen to my final wish

Pistol

(verse 1)

I tried it and it couldn't be done

running from my problems

as fast as a bullet from a pistol

or fighting them head on

like a matador with passion and a bull

when confronting doesn't work either

where can someone turn?

besides the bottle or therapy

wear a piece of hope

and try to get through it

(chorus)

with that gun pointed at me

I try to run but I know I can't get away

dodging a bullet is only an expression

but lately, I get the impression

that nothing matters anyway

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

I tried it and I almost succeeded

but what's the point of being close

if you get shot with a pistol

and you can't call an ambulance?

maybe I shouldn't have brought a lance

to a gun fight

(chorus)

with that gun pointed at me

I try to run but I know I can't get away

dodging a bullet is only an expression

but lately, I get the impression

that nothing matters anyway

(end chorus)

(bridge)

you are the one with the pistol

but I'm the one that will risk all

go ahead, shoot me

maybe I will wake up

(chorus)

with that gun pointed at me

I try to run but I know I can't get away

dodging a bullet is only an expression

but lately, I get the impression

with that gun pointed at me

I try to run but I know I can't get away

dodging a bullet is only an expression

but lately, I get the impression

that nothing matters anyway

(end chorus)

BLACK OUT

(verse 1)

I almost quit everything

I almost gave up on it all

it doesn't matter how hard I work

this world continued to lie

and use me for its own gain

why is youth wasted on the young?

why am I at this age

but still so naive?

black out, fade to black

then have a revelation and come back

black out, don't back out now

you got to show them how

you'll rule over them someday

(chorus)

they almost won the battle

but the war isn't over yet

even though it rains

it washes away nothing just makes us wet

once I've made up my weak mind

there's nothing I can't do except be kind

(end chorus)

(verse 2)

I almost quit my job

I almost let them rob

my chances and opportunities

they got to know me

then wanted some unities

I agreed with my fingers crossed

black out, fade to black

then have a revelation and come back

black out, don't back out now

you got to show them how

you'll rule over them someday

(chorus)

they almost won the battle

but the war isn't over yet

even though it rains

it washes away nothing just makes us wet

once I've made up my weak mind

there's nothing I can't do except be kind

they almost won the battle

but the war isn't over yet

even though it rains

it washes away nothing just makes us wet

once I've made up my weak mind

there's nothing I can't do except be kind

(end chorus)

(bridge)

this is the kind of person I am

I pretend to bathe in the light

but I'm just addicted to the dark

and there's no going back

even though I act like I'm holy

I'm in in love with the black

(chorus)

they almost won the battle

but the war isn't over yet

even though it rains

it washes away nothing just makes us wet

once I've made up my weak mind

there's nothing I can't do except be kind

they almost won the battle

but the war isn't over yet

even though it rains

it washes away nothing just makes us wet

once I've made up my weak mind

there's nothing I can't do except be kind

(end chorus)